I'm watching Disney's 60th celebration when Kermit THE Frog comes on to sing "Rainbow Connection", and I find the tears I thought would stay away today. I've been crying for days. Every little thing is reminding me of mom. In her last days, I played this song at her bedside on repeat. It made her relax, and something about it made me relax too. She was slipping away and I was grasping for anything and everything that would bring her back just a little bit.
This month has been difficult all month long. It's six months since she passed. I thought of her on Valentine's, she was always our Valentine growing up. She would buy us little heart candies, and cards, and flowers. She was such a sweet momma. And I think the biggest mountain for me to climb is her birthday in a few days, and then mine. My first birthday without her. It's birthday week. We always celebrated together. I wish we had more birthdays together. I wish we had more valentines to send. I wish we had more songs to sing.
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oh dear....hugs and hugs and more hugs! I've been thinking about you....it's hard and I hope you find the strength to carry on.
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